That... Just... Happened...

So I haven't seen one of my brothers since before last Christmas and my other brother and sister I haven't seen since last May, which was the last time I spoke with my father.

Yesterday my brother told me he had a football game so I decided I'd go... I miss him so much, we were like best friends before I moved out. Now FH has never met my father and I was trying really hard not to run into him so I wouldn't have to deal with the confrontation. I made it all the way to the end of the game... I got my brother's attention and we were talking after the game and low & behold dear ol' daddy walks over so Pat and I start walking back to his car and he calls my name... ugh!

I stop, he walks over, I said "This is my fiance, Pat. Pat this is Alan, my father." He looks at Pat and said "What's good brother?"... ARE YOU KIDDING? THIS IS GOING TO BE YOUR SON IN LAW, IT'S THE FIRST TIME YOU ARE MEETING HIM AND THIS IS WHAT YOU SAY?!?!? He then proceeds to tell me I look good, it was nice of me to come to my brother's game, and ask Pat where he goes to school. THAT'S IT! We say our good-byes and walk away.

I have more in depth conversations with strangers. This is supposed to be my father and instead he acts like we were just old neighbors or something. I am glad I ran into him, it only makes my disgust stronger and reassures me that I made the right decision, one that I won't regret. I am also glad Pat got to meet him, so he finally knows what I'm talking about because few people can even imagine what kind of person he is...

Ya know... at first I wanted to think that he cared about his little girl getting married but I really don't believe he does... at all. He never tried to contact me when he found out I was engaged, ok, I'll let that one slide because he doesn't have my number. But then last night he didn't ask to see the ring, ask when we were getting married, no congratulations, absolutely NO questions about anything. So I'm done... any thought about trying to make up is gone. Ugh what a crappy night...

Just because I'm bored

1. Link to the person who tagged you

2. Post the rules to your blog

3. Write 6 random things about yourself.

Ok so I wasn't really tagged... it was on Aimee's blog and I don't have anything better to do so... here goes:

1. I have moved on average once per year! I am 21 and have moved about 25 times, and no, my father nor mother was in the military.

2. I have to have my closet organized by color and style of clothes. For example: First I have light to dark tank tops, then light to dark short sleeves, then light to dark long sleeves, then light to dark sweatshirts and then I repeat that pattern with my work clothes.

3. I own a 4-5 ft. long ball python who loves to watch tv with me.

4. I can probably burp better than anyone you've ever heard, and I probably shouldn't be admitting that.

5. I don't like any foods that stink while they are cooking. If the food doesn't smell good in the kitchen while cooking... I'm not eating it!

6. Whenever I watch tv or am in a car that has volume levels by numbers, I MUST stop on a number that is divisible by 5.

I am beginning to think I'm crazy...

So at the beginning of this whole wedding thing I knew I wanted something a little different for my invitations... well maybe not necessiarly different... I just knew exactly what I wanted. So my mom was like 'well why don't you just make them yourself' GREAT! I thought... I can have everything I want and then buy pieces when I have the time/money to work on them.

BIG MISTAKE!!!

I am DIY 150 pocket fold invitations... and when I say DIY I mean everything... even the actual pocket folds themselves! Crazy I know! I finally went out this past weekend and bought the majority of the stuff to make them and thought tonight would be the perfect time to work on them since Pat is at work until 10.

So I had all 50 sheets of Strathmore (sp?) paper in my car to take it to Fedex/Kinkos for them to cut into 19 x 6 inch strips. I called Kinkos... they don't have a paper cutter big enough to handle poster board size paper. Ok, so I'll call UPS... negative as well. Mail Depot in O'Fallon? (yes I was going to make the almost hour drive to have some freakin paper cut!) Nope, they can't do it either. My last resort was Artmart and to my suprise if I went in and cut it myself it was free! Yay for saving money!!!

So after work I go and cut 20 pieces, which makes 60 strips to assemble into pocket folds. I decided I didn't want to do all 50 Strathmore sheets at once b/c that would take too much time... Anywho, I cut my paper and 30 minutes later am on my way home. I moved my kitchen table in the living room to work on the assembling and there I sat



and sat



and sat



and sat some more working on these darn things! I worked on them from 6 to 10 with a little break to get something to eat and I only got 60 done! I HAVE 90 LEFT TO DO!!! Plus printing all 3 insert cards, the vellum with our monogram, the actual announcement, putting the ribbon on the front and the list goes on and on and on! If anyone is wanting to DIY pocket fold invitations... trust me when I say buy the pocket folds already made... yes it is more expensive but you will save yourself 10 hours per 150 of them that you do!

With that being said I cannot wait until I'm done with them all together and get to tell everyone 'look what I made!'

I've made the decision

I went to college for a while right after highschool and then family issues came up and I moved in with Alan (bio-dad) and long story short I ended up getting a place of my own which meant getting a full time job and no school :o(

Well this past summer I took a class (microeconomics... YUCK!) and then decided that I really want to finish my degree... I mean there is no use in wasting all that money, right? I've been going back and forth between accounting and teaching and drum roll please.... I am 90% sure I'm going into teaching!

I would love to teach high school algebra or calc... something along those lines because I love math and would love to teach something that can be thought of as being difficult in a way that everyone can learn it! I have a lot of work to do to get there though but that's ok!

I'm also debating on going back to school full time when soon to be hubby graduates and gets a full time job but we'll see... One step at a time... but this is my goal and I cannot wait to complete it!

I told my little brother last night and he was so excited and wants me to be his hs math teacher b/c by the time I'm done with school he'll be in high school! He's so darn cute!

You've gotta be kidding

So I went shopping today for bpic outfits... not my best idea! First I walked into VS and about died when I saw the prices haha Next stop was Charlotte Russe, and to my surprise they didn't have any corsets!!! UGH! I did find one top that I kinda liked but didn't end up buying it because I didn't 'love' it. It was a depressing day :o(

Yesterday I did however buy the cutest tank top I made on customizedgirl.com. It's black and says 'Property of Patrick' on top and at the bottom it says 'est 03-06-09'. So at least I have that to wear for bpics.

On a positive note I went to Artmart today and got a bunch of paper for my invitations! The only down side is how many different cool ideas I got from all the stuff at that store. I need to just stick to my original plan but I know as soon as fiance comes home I'm going to drag him up to Artmart to get his opinion hahaha Gotta love wedding planning!

things that make me laugh

Just thought I'd share some things that make me laugh before I go to bed...




Sometimes I feel like this at work:




Good Night!

My Name's Forrest, Forrest Gump

I really forgot how much I love this movie, and the older I get, the more I agree with Mr. Gump's life view.

You really never know what's around the corner. One minute you could be happy in your own little bubble and the next you could find out that life isn't as simple as you once thought.

Sometimes I wish things would go back to how they were when we were kids. You didn't have to worry about anything, no bills, no working, you weren't ever really in any family drama... life was simple. I wish I didn't have to make the choices that I do because ultimately they affect the rest of my life.

For those of you that read about my bio dad drama on the wedding board then you have a little knowledge of what I'm talking about. I was talking with the fiance about it a couple weeks ago and I realize I am more confused now than I was when it first happened! One thing I am NOT confused about... I miss my siblings more than they will ever know and I just hope one day they will forgive me.

2 of my little brothers... I can't find a pic of my little sister!

Baby Fever

I really want a baby. I know I'm crazy but hey at least I know what I'm getting myself into. My brother & sister were born when I was 11 & 13, so I kinda know what to expect.

Let me say that it's all my friend Nikki's fault! Tim, Nikki's husband, is my fiance's best friend so naturally I became friends with them. They have been married for a little less than 2 years and Nikki is now preggers and about to pop. Sunday we went to her baby shower which sooo didn't help my baby cravings!!

I am definitely going to wait until I'm married and would really like to be in a house with an actual career but since I'm totally impatient I don't know if I can wait that long. Pat a.k.a. fiance really wants to have a house. I totally agree with him but I'm going to have to wait until AT LEAST NEXT Christmas time before our home ownership dreams become reality!

I never thought I'd be 'mom' material... I really don't like kids in general but I can't help wanting a kid of my own. One to spoil, show off, and take embarrassing pictures of to show their significant others in the future haha Maybe I should go babysit like 6 kids, maybe that would help curve my craving!

w00t w00t 1st Blog

I finally decided that this whole blog thing might be a good idea... one more thing for me to get addicted to on the interwebz! I know at times I can get a little overwhelmed with everything that goes on around me and this is going to be my place to vent. On to more happy things...

I can't believe it is a little over 6 months until I get married! eek! Sometimes I think we just aren't old enough to take this step but he is the one for me! It doesn't matter if we are 20 or 30 he is always going to be my other half so why not get our life together started as soon as possible? After all the bad relationships I've gone through (I'm sure everyone has their horror stories!) I appreciate Pat even more because he truly puts me first... a feeling I never felt until I met him! Wow I'm sounding like a corny Hallmark card now! I better stop myself before I get sick haha

So far we have:

Photographer- Jodi Life-in-Print

Band- Top Notch

Church- Hanley Rd. Baptist Church

Reception Hall- Hendris

My dress- Davids Bridal

Tuxes- Savvi

Ok now seeing the list kinda freaks me out because it doesn't seem like we have that much done ahhhh!!!! I'm starting on invitations this weekend. We are, or should I say I am, DIY pocket fold invitations. Our colors are black and pool, which I love! Well I really wanted black and orange but I didn't want my BM to look like pumpkins so I decided against it.

OMG I almost forgot about what an amazing time I had last night! I went out to eat/drink (ok mainly drink) with 5 b-pic girls and our photographer. I had previously told my wonderful FI that I'd probably be home around 8ish, partly because I have a fear of being around strangers, and here I come in the door around 10. Let's just say he was little upset that I hadn't called to let him know I would be later. However, I just couldn't help myself. I was having so much fun with the 3 girls that stayed... ohhh and our waitress, she was the topic of conversation at our table with her little chicken head bob, funny facial expressions, and groovy dance moves, we couldn't help but laugh. So thank you girls for sharing some drinks and laughs!